According to edwards characterization of god, is god irrational

In my opinon i do not belive in god because what has he done for me or you because he did not put food in my mouth my parents did and he did not get my parents busted there butt to feed 5 kid so i word say that god is irration and not relavent because everything that happened in our life happened in our life is because our parents or us doing it for our selfs this is my opinon okay in not trying to be rude to any one who belives in god