How did jeanne view her situation when it was happening and also as an adult looking back when she wrote the book in the book farewell to Manzanar

In the book "Farewell to Manzanar" Jeanne felt that the situation was her own doing and as such, her own fault. This was when she was a child and the whole issue was happening at that time. However, when she grew up and became an adult looking back, she grew angry with herself for not doing anything about the situation.